Saturday, May 7, 2011
New Website!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
This is home.
Monday, April 25, 2011
A rainy day and Psalm 55
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
April Already?
As I looked at the calendar this morning I could hardly believe that it’s already April. These past few months have gone by in a blur. A few weeks ago I ended my job at Starbucks and took one as a nanny for a local family. I’m learning quickly that nannying has its own challenges, but I’m very grateful to be working normal hours. I was interested in this particular job because the family is raising their children to be bilingual, and they wanted a nanny who would be willing to immerse their kids in Spanish. Each day I’m amazed at how much the kids (2 and 4) already understand, and little by little they are beginning to speak the language too. It’s been a good challenge for me to speak Spanish all day long, although I didn’t realize how much vocabulary I’ve forgotten!
Tim’s still at Blue Nile, doing customer service for them, and slowly – oh so slowly – they’ve begun giving him less 4am shifts. I still feel like we live in a sort of time warp though, when we look at the clock that says 8pm and we know we should’ve already been in bed. We keep reminding ourselves, “We’ll have stories for the kids one day…”
As we approach this summer, many of our conversations have revolved around our photography business and trying to determine what that is going to become. We’re both thrilled for the coming months and all the weddings that we get to shoot together. It means we get to see friends and to travel, but I also think it’ll really help us to discover what our style is and how we work together. Down the road we see ourselves working alongside one another, in ministry, in a photo business, through counseling, or in some combination of the three. It’s so easy to want to skip ahead to whatever that is. I daily have to remind myself that there is value in what we’re doing now, that we’re learning and growing through the circumstances that we’re in right now. I recently re-listened to a chapel message from our senior year at Wheaton. Sarah Graham suggested Tim and I listen this message by Dr Burge a few months ago, but the words struck me harder as I listened to it again last week.
“God is at work shaping us with indelible experiences when we don’t even realize it…And what I’ve decided is that there’s a tremendous denial at the very heart of that kind of thinking. The denial says that what we are doing right now, what we are experiencing right now, who we know…these are accidents we think. And it’s wrong. God is at work shaping us now in the experiences that come our way and we don’t even realize it.”
I’m clinging to this thought, so as not to be swept away by my own frustration and desire for something different for us.Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Seattle Public Library
Sunday, March 27, 2011
The Delicious Side of Seattle
Friday, March 25, 2011
Embracing the Chaos
This morning as I drove Tim to work just before 4am, through the steady rain pattering on the roof and the sound of the windshield wipers squeaking back and forth, I had a moment of seeing ourselves from a distance. “What a weird time in our lives,” is what I said to him. Wrapped up in those words are so many emotions – sadness about leaving friends and family behind, excitement about future opportunities, frustration with Tim’s current schedule, anticipation for something new, but overall there’s gratitude. I have to keep reminding myself where we’ve been this past year and what God has taken us through. Last night I was looking through photos that we’ve taken in the last several months – it’s the best way for me to remember the past and turn it around to thankfulness and praise. When I remember that we had next to no money when we decided to come out to Seattle with nothing but our car and a couple suitcases, and that we were blessed with a free place to stay during the two months it took us to find work, and that within 24 hours of signing a lease I lost the job opportunity I was promised and then Tim was offered a new position…when I remember these things I cannot help but be overwhelmed with gratitude for all of God’s provision.
The past few months have been very difficult for Tim and I. We’ve been homesick and exhausted and struggling a lot with where we are right now. When I look back at this though, I know we’re exactly where we’re supposed to be. We’re growing in ways we wouldn’t have if we’d stayed in Wheaton or moved near our families. New opportunities have been opened to us since moving out here – new friends, a new church, new challenges and encouragement for really starting our photography business. Despite the challenges and the hard decisions I’d like to shrug off, I’m trying to remember and live the saying I learned a few years ago when I was in Honduras – “Embrace the Chaos.” It’s in the hard places that we have the opportunity to be stretched and grown into who we’re meant to become. I have to keep remembering that.